Yes, “I can play with Madness”.

This is for you, who doesn’t let me spit it out.

Time’s up long time and there just NO POINT hunting me down.

Honey…

At this point I can smell you, read your facial expressions and hear your disturbing vanishing voice miles away. And no matter how strong you think you still are, you have made me stronger than that yourself. You forced me into breaking up with you (pathetic little you). How’s it going now that you have no life to leech?

Breaking up feels good as hell. Belonging to myself and seeing you don’t belong to me anymore as well. Especially when it takes a very peculiar kind of exorcism…

…and friendly drops of Benzodiazepines.

You got the fuck out of me. How good am I? I just can’t help feeling this proud.

All I wanted was to throw up you, but not the things that were bad for me. I just wanted to deal with them. I didn’t have deal with you. You’re nothing but an error. You scared me, took my precious, beautiful, virgin life and (almost) sanity. For what? Tell me, for what? Do you even know??? Of course not, because IT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE! You’re just the most stupid thing, you’re born from contradiction. You’re fed with legitim and innocent happiness. Disgusting! You ruin lives. 

But you didn’t ruin mine, and showed me the path to your own destruction. I have your whole strategy mapped down, I have all the tools to detect you, stop you, and bring you down real nice and slow, so you feel, badly, what it feels like to be deceived. 

The best part is: you taught me aaaaaaall that. I guess you have my permission to be, like me, proud of yourself for that, and also for keeping my misery for so long. But you should never forget that, after all your masterpiece, I’m still the Winner.

You lost.

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Applause to…

There’s one little memory of my life which I believe will always be supreme in terms of giving me the same sensations I used to have when I first saw it, and it would be Silent Hill. The game. It could be the second, the third or the fourth ones. Because when I compare it to the other horror games and movies, it’s still very daring. The aesthetics they use creates not only fear, and scary surprises. You’re not just scared. And when you’re scared, you don’t feel like saying to your friends “how cool was that!!!”, no. You feel like staying quiet to deal with the heaviness of the experience. Sometimes, you feel like throwing up. You wish you had never seen it. It has a “trauma” effect. It’s intense without being made of only screams and blood, and killing and running from bad people, once most of the enemies are not even aware of their own existence. You feel sorry for them, because you can perfectly imagine their pain and agony. When you play it, you don’t want to kill the monster because it wants to kill you, or to feel like a hero. You don’t want to get out of the room because you’re running away from the monster. You want to kill the monster and get out of the room because their miserable conditions are simply WAY TOO DISTURBING.

They go far beyond usual concepts of fear. They put you in a position where you just can’t relax. Not even in rooms where you can save your progress, which are usually, in any game, a safe place to be. They’re safe, but there’s always something awkward about them. 

The protagonist is never handsome/beautiful, strong, healthy, good. They’re messed up people. They don’t have a clue about what’s going on. 

Do you think they use Shotguns of Rifles? They start the game with a steel pipe that they find in some absurd place. The most you can get is something as impressive as a simple pistol (except in Silent Hill 3, where you have more elaborated weapons, even a katana and, also after you finish the game, a lightsaber, to have a little extra fun =D)

Not to mention the absolutely despairing sound effects, the themes (always cool but never catchy or glorious) and the very weird and few NPCs. Those people always seem to have problems. Serious problems.

You can expect pretty much anything. It’s from bizarre on.

I’ll manage to make some additional analysis on Silent Hill and post it here later on. It’s worth remembering and writing down every single geniality about it. I do think people should try it but, honestly, I also think some REALLY shouldn’t. It’s cool, it’s good, but it can damage you in very peculiar ways.

Let me start by explaining the reason why I chose to become the Mindwalker. I watched a movie. It’s called “Ponto de Mutação” (Mindwalk, in english). It’s a perfect example of the possibility to apply some kind of perception, or even knowledge, to many structures and systems , in both universal and atomic scales, and also in sociological terms. I’m talking about a very huge kind of perspective. When I say huge I’m trying to create an image of the ponit of view. A point of view which is capable of receiving a lot of information, put them together, combine them and take a very complex and inclusive meaning, comprehension out of it. In other words, maybe an elastic point of view, that reaches and understands pieces of knowledge that are far from each other, and yet can bring them all close to each other and to a common approach to be used to understand not only their individual mechanisms, but their similarities and possible patterns. And, after all that, go one step further to artistic experiences that go beyond any rational behavior, with the same goal: to know and to understand something, or all things. But also with a finer goal: to feel something, or all things. There are three main characters: an american politician, a poet and a scientist. The scientist says that what we really need to do is change our perspectives about the world. And by exchanging their diverse experiences throughout the movie, talking and observing the peculiar surroundings where the whole thing takes place, that’s what they are doing: reaching one another, learning how to think different and noticing the presence of common characteristics between many spheres of life and the Universe. I’ll try to express my thoughts and perceptions on the largest number of things here, so that people can come tell me whatever they think would enrich or deconstruct what I said. By doing that, I believe I’ll be exercising this very noble and irresistible thing, which is changing my perspectives. And, of course, contributing for the same purpose, so anyone who’s interested in changing perspective can find a nice place to try to do so.

Let me start by explaining the reason why I chose to become the Mindwalker.

I watched a movie. It’s called “Ponto de Mutação” (Mindwalk, in english). It’s a perfect example of the possibility to apply some kind of perception, or even knowledge, to many structures and systems , in both universal and atomic scales, and also in sociological terms. I’m talking about a very huge kind of perspective. When I say huge I’m trying to create an image of the ponit of view. A point of view which is capable of receiving a lot of information, put them together, combine them and take a very complex and inclusive meaning, comprehension out of it. In other words, maybe an elastic point of view, that reaches and understands pieces of knowledge that are far from each other, and yet can bring them all close to each other and to a common approach to be used to understand not only their individual mechanisms, but their similarities and possible patterns. And, after all that, go one step further to artistic experiences that go beyond any rational behavior, with the same goal: to know and to understand something, or all things. But also with a finer goal: to feel something, or all things.

There are three main characters: an american politician, a poet and a scientist. The scientist says that what we really need to do is change our perspectives about the world. And by exchanging their diverse experiences throughout the movie, talking and observing the peculiar surroundings where the whole thing takes place, that’s what they are doing: reaching one another, learning how to think different and noticing the presence of common characteristics between many spheres of life and the Universe.

I’ll try to express my thoughts and perceptions on the largest number of things here, so that people can come tell me whatever they think would enrich or deconstruct what I said. By doing that, I believe I’ll be exercising this very noble and irresistible thing, which is changing my perspectives. And, of course, contributing for the same purpose, so anyone who’s interested in changing perspective can find a nice place to try to do so.